Why Are We Waiting To Follow Our Dreams?
Why is it we wait so long to follow our dreams? As I get older I wonder this more and more. There has to be a reason we have these deep-seeded dreams that spring to life time & time again, don't you think? Those dreams you had when you were 8 years old, then again at 16, & at 22, & on & on it goes. Those dreams that show up when we've come to a place where we found ourselves truly letting go of our stresses & worries. Times where we've laughed so hard it hurt, lost track of time exploring something new, or found ourselves using our precious talents that we put on the back burner years ago.
At what point in our lives did we say, "That dream is cool & all, but that's not really what I should do with my life. I must do the mature thing instead and wait."? Just typing that phrase out breaks my heart to bits. I think it's because I know that we were all made to do something special in this world & in our lifetimes. There is no one else exactly the same as you or exactly the same as me. "Waiting" for the proper time to pursue your dreams just makes so little sense to me now. What are you waiting for? Retirement? A larger income? Others to approve?
Here's the thing - I've felt this same way too. That "I should wait until..." feeling. But last year I grew a lot & had to search deep down in the places of my heart that I locked tight a long time ago. And I found that I wasn't happy. But I wasn't unhappy either. I was... numb. I started separating myself from what brought me the most joy & fulfillment, because I figured that following your dreams was just for some lucky few that I wasn't a part of. So I unknowingly started making myself feel less & less. Just me going through the motions everyday.
However, once I had broken down those walls that I built up over the years I was overtaken by the rush of all the feelings, hopes, & dreams I hid away for so long. Needless to say, it hurt. It hurt knowing that I wasn't doing what I've been put on this earth to do. I can get into more of the specifics of this time in my life last year in the future, but the point is that it opened my eyes. And it took some inner wrestling on my part to realize that all I need to do to make things right in my life was to just begin.
I don't need to have the fanciest gear or education. I don't need everybody to be on board with me. I don't need to know what I'll be doing 3 months from now. All I need is to begin. And that's all you need to. Following your dreams is an on going process that will eventually take hold of your life & transform it for the better for not only yourself, but those around you. Like I said earlier, there is no one exactly like anybody else, so that means no one can do what you were meant to do in this world in exactly way you can. And you are needed in this world.
There are a few sayings that are coming to mind for me as I'm telling you this. The first is, "Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway." by Earl Nightingale, which speaks for itself. The second is, "Just because it fits, doesn't mean it's right.". This second phrase is one that I read around May of last year & has stuck with me ever since, because I can personally relate to its message. I've been in a lot of situations & jobs in my life where I technically fit fine in, but they were never truly right for me. And being caught up in something that isn't right for you has a special knack of softly killing your soul if you're not paying attention. And that doesn't mean that you can't learn from the those experiences (which is a whole other topic I can talk about), but those things shouldn't be permanent, is all I'm saying. Don't stay in this kind of place in your life because it is an easy place to wait for your dreams to manifest in this mystical "right time".
It's okay to be scared of the unknown of following your dreams. It's okay to not have all the answers. It's okay that you may go it alone for a little while. What's not okay is depriving the world & yourself from living the wondrous life that was intended for you. Chase your dreams with all of your heart! Because if you're anything like me, you don't want to live you life numb any longer. What are you waiting for?